I decided to make this blog not just some mere site of mine but a reflection of my life..

But to that, to free all my bottled up emotions I must first do some soul searching.

To find the reason of my existence..

I have been troubled lately, as the struggle between my two selves grow even more and more.

I must find my reason in life in order to push through.
And the only way to do that is to cloister myself in my own world.
With that I say adieu to the outside world(or public tabulas)
And make this blog not a mere blog but a diary of my own- my own secret diary to asses my own life.

Heaven is lost
All that is left is its ghost.

Heaven was forgotten
In the deep black sea of the forsaken

Blinded by an emerging false heaven
Man started to forget the truth

The truth killed
By man's own action

Cries of despair are heard
But no seems to awaken

Heaven will be lost forever
Until the black December
Where man will die of silently
And heaven will be finally be found

Everything is set
Under the guise of death
Its clutch will destroy those who lost heaven
Creating a new world for the seven

Seven souls in one body
Created by malady

The future in debacle
As foretold by the oracle

Seven deaths
Seven births

Everything will come to and end
And then the False Heaven will emerge

***Weird, Weird, Weird, Wag Nang Basahin XD***


Naniniwala pa ba kayo kay Santa Claws.Yung matabang tao nanakatira sa North Pole, kasama ang kanyang kaibigang "deer" na may ilong na bumbilya?

Ako... OO... pero dati pa yon. Nung mang mang pa ako at walang alam. Pero sadyang nakaktuwa na maniwala kay Santa Claws.
Isang matabang damulag ay daadaan sa bahay niyo, para maghatid ng regalo... papasok siya papaunta sa chimeney at ayun instant regalo sa mga good boys and gerls.

Teka chimeney ba ang nasabi ko?? D ba walang chimney sa pinas?
Pano siya dadaan sa bahay natin? Papano yon?

Nung bata pa ako napisip isip rin ako kung saan dumadaan si Santa Claus. Naisip ko nung una, baka sa mga tubo siya dumadaan? Tapos lalabas sa inidoro bit bit ang mga regalo. Naisip ko rin baka galing siya sa Poso Negro sa may backyard namin, sabagay malaki yon, kasya siya. Pero hindi pa rin eh....

San kaya....Dati nung isang paslit pa ako at buwang sa mundo... Hinahanap ko ang mga kasagutan sa tanong na yan. At dyan nagsimula ang aking pagpipilosopo. Ito ang pinakaimportanteng katanungan na gumugulo sa isipan ko nung bata ako. Parang algebra na hindi ko mahanap ang solution.

Napakalalaim at importante ng tanong na yan para sa akin. Pero hangnag ngayon wala pa ring sagot... San nga ba talaga dumadaan si Santa?

Ayon sa aking research, maaring sa tubo siya dumadaan.
Una sa tingin ko hindi na sumasakay si Santa kay Rudolph, Bakit? kasi ganito yan, masyadong mabagal si Rudolph kung tutuusin. Bat hindi na lang siya dumaan sa mass water/ drainaige system ng maynila? Mas mabilis yan. D ba? Tapos sakto pa sa bahay ang labas ni Santa, hindi na siya dadaan pa sa kung saan saan- at laong hindi na siya magpapark. Pangalawa, dait kasi naglagay ako ng pagkain sa may christmas tree... nugnit hindi ito kinain, kagimbal gimbal *awwooo. Pero naisip ko, bat naman kakainin ni Santa yan. Eh madumi ang kanyang kamay, dumaan pa siya sa nakakdiring mga manhole at mga poso negro ng mga tao. Kaya ayan hindi na niya kinain. Pangatlo, naalala niyo ba yung "myth" na kamay sa inidoro?
OO yong may lilitaw na kamay sa inidor tapos susunduting ka daw sa pwet... Sa tingin ko si Santa yon, dahil pauwi an siya gn North Pole naligaw lang. At siguro bakla siya kaya naunundot XD.
Pangapat, bat namna hindi natin makikita si Santa sa ulap... Kasi wala talaga siya doon, nasa ilalim siya, kasama ang katas ng Maynila.

At ayan nahanap ko na rin ang kasagutan... sa drainaige sytem nga siya ng maynila dumadaan.


*At natapos ang weird xmas entry for the year. Yehey
*note, nung bata ako, akala ko spelling ng Santa Claus- ay Santa Claws. >.< Naalala ko pa dati nung pinagtawanan ako dahil dyan. Grade One na ako nun..


*** Personal use***
It's really sad when someone leaves....
FPJ left ...
My brother and grandairmat left for america
And now my friend Jahra is leaving for Japan.

Well that's for vacation only but I really do feel something bad inside of me when someone I know leaves.... Dunno some kind of gut reaction or something. (Sana naman dalhan niya ako ng samurai, sa kapatid ko naman snow)


Speaking of FPJ, well he's a goodman. Alot of my misconceptions about him were lifted this past months, especially since Dr. Manhit always described him in a good light (and not only him alot of people too) It's just so sad that he died.... FPJ is dead, Long Live The King.

Christmas is officially coming. And I want to be ready for it.
>.< Now for gift giving time... I wonder if I could buy anyhing good in greenhills... good and cheap of course... since I really didn't save for this christmas since I needed to pay alot of things... so I am in a slump.. I hope could buy things diirt cheap... I'll ask a girl who is a friend to shop with me, since I am clueless about haggling.. (I don't know why girls really have that skill for "tawad")

With my current mullah, I could only but 50 pesos for each friend.... now what could I buy with 50 pesos.. Darn, Oh well when worse comes to worse I'll either recycle or ask my mother for money.

Now about the whole recycling thing. Basically it's giving something old, but it should look "new". Well maybe some of you did this already... err.. Don't look at me bad, practical lang XD

Schedule for Next Week

Dec 20. Xmas Shopping
Dec 21. Tambay with HS friends
Dec 22 .No plans yet
Dec 23.No plans yet
Dec 24.Christmas Eve
Dec 25.Christmas At Lola's house,(finally going to see my cousins again. XD Videoke ulit)



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I won't be updating as much this holiday season.
Also if I do update, it maybe would be on 25th.
Merry Christmas!

1. I always see this guy in the morning. He would always sit on a corner and just raise his hand, waiting for some alms.Well you guessed it right, he is a BUM. A "taong grasa" in our common language.

I been thinking, maybe it would bring such joy to him if I were to eat with him in one morning any time before Christmas. Not just give him food mind you, but to really eat with him, like family.

And I promise this, before Christmas

2. As some of you may know my dad is somewhere out there, in the "land of the free" they call america. I really do miss him and it really hurts me that another christmas passes without him.

So I promise to buy my dad a gift for this season, and give him a letter and a picture of the whole family when we were all together. When everythign though not perfect was still bliss.

And I promise this, before Christmas

3. Well we never did experience much of the storm here in the Metro. It was even said that "Higanti ng Kalikasan", it was the revenge of nature, misplaced revenge that is. Its ironic how the real polluters and the desecrators of nature are in the city far safer from those in the province who had lost their homes, lost their livelihood and lost lives. What's so ironic about this is that those who are the masterminds of illegal loggings are those who are rich, living somewhere in the Metro in their posh private subdivisions.

Now I have been thinking to give a helping hand to those who have suffered. I shall do this by covertly giving my old shirts to ABS or some other organizations

And I promise this, before Christmas

4. I do love my friends, and the last time I did give them gifts was when I was in 4th year. So I'll buy them gifts for this christmas.

And I promise this, before Christmas

5.It's worth to mention that I promised Jahra that I would come by to debsoc when she texted me last week. Being in "hollowman" status, I decided that I would appear anytiem before christmas.

And I promise this, before Christmas

6. World Peace, nah just joking. What will be my last promise? Hmm..
Oh now I know, to pass my majors exams ofr my mother and probably for myeslf. I know she wants me to graduate qin time and that I would strive to do. I will will even go as far to promise a high grade, well lets hope for the best.

And I promise this, before Christmas

Do you feel? The wind boy, they're getting stronger, much stronger. I can't stop it now. I can feel it, its getting stronger..more powerful

Signal No.1

I'm trying my best

Signal No.2

Its getting harder to supress

Signal No.3

Damn I can't hold it much long

Signal No.4................



*poottt


Sorry I can't hold it anymore, Does smell it bad? XD

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Did any of you read about that taxi driver in Marikina who helped save 2 people? Chivarly is not yet dead, it's alive and blooming in our country. I was amazed at his feat, who could swim the Marikina river just to save two strangers you don't even know about. And what it made more "kahanga-hanga" was the fact that this wasn't his first time to be a "hero". Actually he saved someone before, it was a perosn who was run over in EDSA.

This just makes me regret that day even more... when this old lady was hit by a car in EDSA as well. You know we didn't do anything because we were scared that we might be the ones blamed for that incident. So we just turned a blind eye..... and I regret that. I am not a person who just let other suffer, I want to help.

But resolve alone won't make it.... You got to have determination inorder to help other people. Plus you also have to have a selfless heart...which sadly I do not have. But that doesn't mean you completely forget about your self. What a hero is to me is to be selfless at times when selflessness is needed. And this "time" has dawned upon us. Let's healp one another in our time of need.

But as I said resolve alone won't do no good.. I wish I could help those people suffering right now. I can't stand myself being safe here went most of our brothers are dying... Maybe if we helped them then there would be less pain, less hell for these people.

But what can I really do right now? I am just a college student with no money to lend.. Some of you might say "Why not pray" but as some of you know "faith" isn't really one of my good assets. Darn I am completely useless. What can I do, just watch them....... If so fucking useless right now. Oh well maybe someday I could help people. I wish I could affect change somehow on peoples lives.

Anyways kudos to that guy, he has inspired me in many ways.
maybe I'll go to marikina river and spot me some drowning folks. XD
Afterall we are near that river. Who knows I might be saving someone today XD.

Oops I forgot... I don't know how to swim XD
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No Classes tommorow again(or so I heard) *sigh, I was planning something tommorow...

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Happ Birthday JDec 1 pala, kala ko 2 )
Happy Birthday Ice:Dec 8
Happy Birthday Boncs: Dec 3

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And here are some pictures I got from "Granado Espada" I really like that old novelty thing in those pictures, they're very sexy to look at with that victorian style written all over them